The Question
How do I know you won't leave me? The truth is harsh because I don't know. In all our days, months, years, I may can never know for sure you won't wake up one morning with a mind to walk out the door and never look back. Life is uncertain and that's scary. I could be perfect...the perfect girlfriend, perfect lover, cook your favorite meals, give you a massage every day, walk your dog, be everything you need and still there would be uncertainty. I've always thought if I were perfect no one would have ever left me...alone...heartbroken. But it's not that simple. Uncertainty isn't dependent on perfection. Life is imperfect and a huge part of that is what's unknown. So in loving you...in that pause before I fall completely...my heart asks the question. How do I know you won't leave me? I gaze at your face, watch your lips move as you find the words to tell me how you feel, memorize every expression and nuance that makes you unique. I ask th